Tonsil infection

As a result of CT scan, my doctor informed me that my left tonsil has bacterial infection, which has been causing light fever for 2 weeks. I'm glad to know the cause of my mysterious fever finally, and nothing like a recurrence of cancer, but I wondered if my doctor could have figured it out without CT scan. I really don't want any more radiation, if possible.

Now I'm on antibiotics for a week, hopefully my fever will all go away by then.

Give me no more radiation...please!

Light fever and...refashion!

Last week, as I've posted on my blog, I felt like running so I ran for about 20 minutes. Then next day, I went out to play badminton with the co-workers at my old work place for 2 hours. These ladies are super energetic and don't know how to stop! Anyhow, I was exhausted when I got home after the badminton practice, then when the mysterious light fever started in that night.

The temperature started around 37.2 C...then it occasionally went up to 37.6 C as maximum, but my body temperature stayed around 37 C for days. I was supposed to go to Nagano again this Tuesday to conduct research, but I decided to postpone, and went to the hospital instead.

It also was not a very lucky day for me to visit the hospital. I waited for 1 hour for blood test (the nurse forgot to call me actually), another 2 hours to see the doctor, went back to the lab for additional blood test, but the nurse at the lab said I don't need to take additional one, so I went to cashier, then cashier told me that I still need to get additional blood test, so I had to go back to the lab again...etcetc, which took additional 1.5 hour or so. So when my mom and I got out of the hospital, our parking said we were at the hospital for 6 hours!! It was the same length of wait time as the opening day of the newest attraction at Tokyo Disney Sea, Toy Story Mania.

I also went to take CT scan again, just to make sure that the fever is not caused by the recurrence of cancerous cells. CT scan is also not fun, with all the contrast medium, having to skip meal, and additional radiation.

Next week I will go into the hospital again to hear the results from the CT scan.

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Although I was dizzy from my light fever, I had extra time in my hand. Then I came across really cool blog called Refashionista. Basically this creative lady turns donated clothes into wonderful new clothes and blogs about it. She was so cool and I was so inspired that I decided to try out some refashioning of clothes that I got from my mom and my mom's friends:

Comfortable fabric but awkward length...

Yay!!

My image was making something like this on the magazine :P

Occasionally I would trim the length of skirts or pants I buy, but I never went further than that. This time I went ahead and made a ribbon belt ;)

One year anniversary

On my passport, I have immigration stamp that shows entering Narita, Japan on July 9th, 2011. It's been exactly one year since I got back to Japan for cancer treatment! I feel that time passed by quite fast, faster than usual, especially since I have lost time during chemo treatment.

Remembering chemo
The other day I had to look through medical bills and prescription lists for some purposes. Well, honestly, I couldn't really 'look through', and I could only glance at it, because apparently my body still remembers the names of the enemies who gave great suffering few months ago. I was nauseated.

Ever since I acquired peace in mind and busy time for few months, I sometimes forget what I had gone through. But such reaction of my body tells me what I experienced was indeed significant. I need to remember how lucky I am to be here. When I think that way, nausea from Pavlovian effect doesn't seem that bad.


One year anniversary memorial run
I finally felt like running today. I used to run once a week or so before I found out about lymphoma, but I hadn't run at all since then. Since the weather was nice, I changed to running wear, put my sneakers on, and got out of the house.
I ran for about 2 km, which is short, but enough for my first run in past one year. What's more important is continuing the run. Studies show that frequent exercise reduces chances of falling to cancer. Since I know how wonderful it is to go through cancer treatment, recurrence of cancer is my nightmare. I'm going to run at least once a week, rest of my life.

Remission phase II !!

I fell in love with soba noodles since I moved to Nagano...so good!!

A few days ago I had an appointment with my doctor to hear about the results of ultrasound test I went through about 10 days ago. When I entered my doctor's office, he stared at me for a second with a surprise, and exclaimed, "Your hair grew!" Yes, my hair has grown, perhaps about 1 cm since i saw him last time. The back of my head that had lost hair from radiotherapy is also no longer bald, it's full of  new born hair like baby's hair. It's awesome and I'm interested in experiencing how hairs harden and become stiff overtime.

So the super good news is that I cleared the second evaluation! Yay! Well, the ultrasound did detect something (dead lymphoma I hope) on my left lower neck, but they can't really determine the activity or the content of 'something', so t will need to go back in August for comparison.

Additionally, I began to notice the amount of saliva I produce in my mouth has decreased. This must be from radiotherapy, which was expected and explained by my radiology doctor earlier. Having less saliva is not going to kill me, but now I have to be careful of cavity much more, and I also have to worry about bad breath (since saliva helps clean inside your mouth).

Almost time for the next evaluation!

Solar Eclipse
On May 21st at 7:30am, I went out of the hotel to watch solar eclipse. It was first in 125 years for people on Honshu island (the main island of Japan) to be able to observe such a rare solar eclipse.  Although I understood the significance, I totally forgot to buy the proper glasses to watch the eclipse. Luckily (or more like intentionally) I ran into a kind dentist next door, who lend me his glasses for me to watch solar eclipse. The solar eclipse was beautiful! I couldn't take a good picture of it, but I took a a picture of 木漏れ日（sunshine diffracted through the tree, which normally exhibits circular pattern of light) that the kind next door dentist taught me (shown above). I hope you understand how exciting it was to see the waxing and waning of the sunshine pattern!!

Almost time for...
Next week I have an appointment with the hospital for ultrasound examination. As far as I touch my lower left neck, where lymphoma used to occupy, it doesn't feel like it grew back. I have a mixed feeling, I certainly hope there's nothing going wrong, but I also subconsciously became prepared for the worst case scenario. The feeling is similar to taking an exam at school; I just want to get over with it and hear the result, so I know what to do next, regardless of the result.

The other day I saw a short documentary on a member of a Japanese rockband, who had been diagnosed with malignant lymphoma. I couldn't watch the part where he was being dosed with chemo drugs, it still reminded me of old bad times. When he was going through the side effects, he told his wife that he had severe chest pain in the night that he thought was going to die. Then, his wife couldn't go to sleep because she thought he could die any minute, she had to place her hand on his nose to check if he was breathing every hour or so. When I heard that story, it was a little odd to me, because even though I experienced severe chest pain, stomach ache, nausea, and everything else, I never thought of an idea that I was going to die. I guess it's good that I was being positive in a way, but I just didn't think I would die that easily. I think I was also trying not to even think about it, because it only make myself and others sad. Well, the story is a little bit different with the rockstar because he seems to have been in stage III when he was diagnosed, and he is much older, in his 40s. I guess when you're young, you are, and you should be much more hopeful for the future ahead, regardless of the life you live in.

Fortunately the chemotherapy was successful for the rockstar, he started rocking the world again once he entered the remission stage, just like me.